hey may i ask if you've ever posted those little doodles of marcille wearing costumes of different monsters? i feel like i remember seeing them once but I can't find them anymore...
I haven't since some of them are spoilers.. I have an excuse to do it now tho :3
"Marcille dressed up as monsters. I wanted to draw all the monsters, but there were more than I expected. I often asked myself, 'Why am I doing this?' "
From the complete daydream hour
I've been thinking a lot lately about how Kabru deprives himself.
Kabru as a character is intertwined with the idea that sometimes we have to sacrifice the needs of the few for the good of the many. He ultimately subverts this first by sabotaging the Canaries and then by letting Laios go, but in practice he's already been living a life of self-sacrifice.
Saving people, and learning the secrets of the dungeons to seal them, are what's important. Not his own comforts. Not his own desires. He forces them down until he doesn't know they're there, until one of them has to come spilling out during the confession in chapter 76.
Specifically, I think it's very significant, in a story about food and all that it entails, that Kabru is rarely shown eating. He's the deuteragonist of Dungeon Meshi, the cooking manga, but while meals are the anchoring points of Laios's journey, given loving focus, for Kabru, they're ... not.
I'm sure he eats during dungeon expeditions, in the routine way that adventurers must when they sit down to camp. But on the surface, you get the idea that Kabru spends most of his time doing his self-assigned dungeon-related tasks: meeting with people, studying them, putting together that evidence board, researching the dungeon, god knows what else. Feeding himself is secondary.
He's introduced during a meal, eating at a restaurant, just to set up the contrast between his party and Laios's. And it's the last normal meal we see him eating until the communal ending feast (if you consider Falin's dragon parts normal).
First, we get this:
Kabru's response here is such a non-answer, it strongly implies to me that he wasn't thinking about it until Rin brought it up. That he might not even be feeling the hunger signals that he logically knew he should.
They sit down to eat, but Kabru is never drawn reaching for food or eating it like the rest of his party. He only drinks.
It's possible this means nothing, that we can just assume he's putting food in his mouth off-panel, but again, this entire manga is about food. Cooking it, eating it, appreciating it, taking pleasure in it, grounding yourself in the necessary routine of it and affirming your right to live by consuming it. It's given such a huge focus.
We don't see him eat again until the harpy egg.
What a significant question for the protagonist to ask his foil in this story about eating! Aren't you hungry? Aren't you, Kabru?
He was revived only minutes ago after a violent encounter. And then he chokes down food that causes him further harm by triggering him, all because he's so determined to stay in Laios's good graces.
In his flashback, we see Milsiril trying to spoon-feed young Kabru cake that we know he doesn't like. He doesn't want to eat: he wants to be training.
Then with Mithrun, we see him eating the least-monstery monster food he can get his hands on, for the sake of survival- walking mushroom, barometz, an egg. The barometz is his first chance to make something like an a real meal, and he actually seems excited about it because he wants to replicate a lamb dish his mother used to make him!
...but he doesn't get to enjoy it like he wanted to.
Then, when all the Canaries are eating field rations ... Kabru still isn't shown eating. He's only shown giving food to Mithrun.
And of course the next time he eats is the bavarois, which for his sake is at least plant based ... but he still has to use a coping mechanism to get through it.
I don't think Kabru does this all on purpose. I think Kui does this all on purpose. Kabru's Post Traumatic Stress Disorder should be understood as informing his character just as much as Laios's autism informs his. It's another way that Kabru and Laios act as foils: where Laios takes pleasure in meals and approaches food with the excitement of discovery, Kabru's experiences with eating are tainted by his trauma. Laios indulges; Kabru denies himself. Laios is shown enjoying food, Kabru is shown struggling with it.
And I can very easily imagine a reason why Kabru might have a subconscious aversion towards eating.
Meals are the privilege of the living.
now that youve spelled it all out, its really hitting me how much he grows during his time with mithrun--he still doesnt enjoy what hes eating, but he is doing it. he's making food for himself and is forced to caretake for someone else and in that process must be aware of his own bodys needs to guess at mithruns. mithruns condition is very much an exaggerated state of kabrus own ptsd: kabru ignores his body until he must attend to it, where mithrun cannot feel it at all.
his journey to get reacquainted with his needs is still in its infancy when the story ends, but it is a journey he starts, and starts it by having no choice but recognize he needs to survive and that takes food, no matter what kind.
Im sorry I do this to every fandom im in
Just a thought.
her yippee <3
oh they super understood the assignment this time holy shit
every autistic person watching this episode of dungeon meshi:
they are my favorite siblings
thinking about the thesis of japanese breakfast’s music…… being good and trying to be better despite it all……. heft says “i spent the summer trying to be sweeter”. the body is a blade goes “try your best to slowly withdraw from the darkest impulses of your heart”. slide tackle opens with “i want to be good / i wanna navigate this hate in my heart” :-( despite it all!!!!!! we should try and be good!!!!!!!
Dungeon Meshi - Laios & Falin
just normal royal advisor things
peepaw chilchuck
no one look at the "stove" for too long.
the funny pals who cook.
That night, lying beside her, I remembered how when I was a child I would slip my cold feet between my mother's thighs to warm them. How she'd shiver and whisper that she would always suffer to bring me comfort, that that was how you knew someone really loved you. I remembered the boots she'd broken in so that by the time I got them I could go on unbothered, without harm. Now, more than ever, I wished desperately for a way to transfer pain, wished I could prove to my mother just how much I loved her, that I could just crawl into her hospital cot and press my body close enough to absorb her burden. It seemed only fair that life should present such an opportunity to prove one's filial piety. That the months my mother had been a vessel for me, her organs shifting and cramping together to make room for my existence, and the agony she'd endured upon my exit could be repaid by carrying this pain in her place. The rite of an only daughter. But I could do no more than lie nearby, ready to be her advocate, listening to the slow and steady beeping of machinery, the soft sounds of her breathing in and out.
Crying in H Mart - Michelle Zauner
My storyboard assignment for school!! They gave me free reign so I drew the silly monkies :D 🎊
🎵 Easy Breezy - chelmico
LMK if it was a video game (based off totk/botw)
Undivided attention
Reblogging for day crew but I wanted to add my favorite details about this in no particular order
1. 13th panel Mk babbling "aaee... buh" was meant to be him mimicking the sound of "hey bud". A greeting he'd hear often
2. 2nd to last panel, when mk has his hands on Wukongs face, his fingers tug on the bags under his eyes
3. I particularly love how in the last panel Mk's snuggled up right next to the heart patch on Wukongs chest. The symbolism speaks for itself.
4. The dialogue: "What makes you think I know what you need?" When all that was needed was for him to be there. A theme very prevalent in their dynamic. A constant underlying confusion on what to do as a guardian and mentor when all that was needed was his presence and support. In which he still struggles with constantly.
5. In the last panel, Wukong is re-reading his own lore as shown by the stone he was born from and Flower Fruit Mountain, potentially to gain a better understanding of how to care for Mk.
