-- hi there! i’m TWINKIE; 20+ adult, & my gender + pronouns are whatever you want them to be baby! welcome to my tumblr!

it’s your everyday multi-fandom indulging blog; primarily art-centric!

#uwu art is the tag to use to browse my work, & HERE is where you can see all the stuff i’m into if you’re curious, & thoroughly judge me as a person. i hope i’m very cringey to you. ღ

this blog is PG-13; cw - including, but not limited to - the occasional themes of gore / horror, tagged accordingly; viewer discretion is nonetheless advised,

if you’d care to treat me a little, support my K0FI; every d0nator is welcome to a personal sketch request in return!  C0MMISSI0NS are temporarily CLOSED.

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c0m/pr0fic/pr0shippers / pedophile/incest/abuse-glorifying freak people are NOT welcome here. NOR are radfems, exclusionists / gender/identity-criticals, TERFS/truscums, bigots & tr*mp supporters, LGBT+phobes including ace/arophobes, & similar such.

& anyone please let me know if i’m interacting with any of the above.

all that out of the way, thank you for visiting!

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au where sakuya ( & friends by association ) gets really invested into my little pony. a cool au by me C:

that guy, you know the one. chunky cheesus

so i may or may not start posting my art onto my TWITTER...

terrifying, i know... BUT REST ASSURED, if you don't want to be anywhere NEAR that slogfest, you're not missing ANYTHING staying here; i'm NOT moving over there, just branching out a little bit & maybe making use of that account beyond general retweeting.

come see how hard i get harassed for making birds kiss or being " too woke " or something

anybody else watching those in-character livestreams corey's doing because.... they are so silly

YOU ARE TOO SWEET, THANK YOU!

i wouldn't say i do anything TOO special... in fact, one could argue there's a much less... " tedious " way to do what i do, but!

commonly, i throw open sai on a 3000x3000 canvas, i ZOOM in, use the second to smallest size with the basic pen brush & just! have at it!

but this tends to leave my work UNGODLY small, so what i do from there is copy the image FROM sai, throw it onto ms paint, & screenshot either 200% or 300% zoomed in to put the picture back together like a puzzle if the image was already on the " larger " side,

which then leads to a subtle " blown up " look to the image, but hey! it's still smoother looking than my lineart in paint!

which THERE i simply play around with the flexible lineart tool on a gigantic canvas until i achieve the desired look!

do you see a difference? which do you prefer?

& then immediately following toxic yaoi murder do i bring you absolute no context nonsense. as it goes around here

yuuya finds out about chiryo's super secret boyfriend & nobody is happy with it + chiryo accidentally triggering another gay awakening in shuu iwamine's pathetic & sad life whilst blackout drunk

( ft, of course, @satisfiedskye's OC chiryo ~ )

in which someone takes your place; there's less of a fuss if a regular old bird should die.

( ft @satisfiedskye's hatoful OC chiryo & his ending, where hiyoko is spared & taken in by the doves at a hefty cost; )

❝ & the butterfly said, " Come on little chrysalis! It's not yet time for you to return to the dirt. Don't you still want to become a beautiful butterfly like me? " ❞

// don't tag this post as papa/isa & don't even interact w/ me if you ship them

i think the stanley parable is an experience where you get to take a glimpse into a day in the life of this man who's been alone for Far too long, really unstable, & he made a game he wants to show you, the visitor! so you get to walk in the shoes of his character & experience that game, but your company is far too much to handle as you meddle with his obsession & simply EXIST as another person to him, & he rips you to shreds out of sheer, unadulterated, animalistic fear. but god he needs you.

his game isn't enough & he is still vulnerable to the all too painful human desire for attention. to be known, recognized, loved. you've given him too big of a taste & touched upon too big of a vulnerability just by realizing he exists, & he is begging you with every fiber to stay.

but you can't help no matter what you do. he's not your problem to solve & you don't have the resolve as it is.

maybe it's better to leave him to his devices & play his own game. let him fall back into the loneliness he's always known. maybe it's better to turn a blind eye. for your own good.

the MEANING of the stanley parable to me? as in... what i would think the plot is trying to convey? what the overall game's meaning / lesson is SUPPOSED to be?

oh god i don't know,

& unless i'm just ESPECIALLY dense, i'm not sure anyone actually WOULD, i'm not sure the answer to that is remotely clear. i think it's ALL a matter of interpretation; what YOU make of everything you've seen thus far, & even then, we're all probably far off from what's really going on. there's SO much going on in the background, man... so many implications made in details we're STILL discovering about the game years later.

i mean- if you could tell me what the plot of the stanley parable was in a straightforward fashion, what COULD you say beyond " a narrator & a protagonist get up to existential misadventures in a game, "

a very rough ballpark answer i could give you is that, it's a game about isolation & madness in mundanity; it started off nice & simple - you think, with some guy merely wanting to make a successful game that changes one's life to play it, ONLY for it to spiral out of his & anyone's control. the game is playing him. it's playing itself. you are playing the stanley parable. did anyone ever have control? could it be so simple as a video game gone awry?

& somehow this goes fluidly well ( at least in my opinion ) with ultra deluxe's message CLEARLY more revolving around the meta in-universe escalation of the narrator's game, managing to convey the bastardization & overstayed welcome of genuine passion projects stretched to their limit & what that does to the creator as WELL as the project in of itself, but also having this take PLACE in the same realm of madness you were stuck in & isolated to begin with. which is as fascinating as it is unique; you're witnessing the " behind the scenes " stuff in the MIDST of the game you're playing, IN the REALM of the game you're playing, contained in the place where all this madness began, blurring the line of what's truly real for these characters or what is merely performance between them. & do they themselves even know?

i feel like, & ESPECIALLY with ultra deluxe's release, the meaning of everything in this game is a blend of one's experience alongside some kind of commentary, but i could not for the life of you give you a definite answer or opinion as to what it all adds up to or means. what it was truly MEANT to tell you.

but maybe that's the point,

you just get to witness this hell for these characters, you see it all, & then you leave. there is no answer or solution for you to find. you can't help them playing the game, & you can't help them not playing the game. you just get to see, then leave.

but hey, that's just a theory. a ga

bob is just as new to girls as he is to love itself, but how can such a little frilly silly woman need so MUCH? is THIS what she snagged his big meaty self for?

// A WIDDLE SOMETHING FOR MY BELOVED @tomiechu & their hubbie ~