Jonathan Harker when he sees a man scaling the walls lizard-style

My husband doesn't have Tumblr. So I take screenshots of all the good Dracula Daily memes and send them to him. He is delighted.

I hear a lot of new parents say that motherhood has humbled them and they never expected things to be so hard.

And, like... how?! I want a child soooo badly, and yet I am already terrified of parental burn-out. I hear horror stories day in and day out. And I can picture the challenges so clearly already. How could anybody expect it to be easy when I get more scared the more time passes?

The wish for a child is just as strong as it has always been. But the fear is growing. 🥲

Do you want to be tagged in writeblr tag games??

If you're a writeblr (or booklr or studyblr account actually!) and you would like to be tagged in tag games, please interact with this post! Doesn't matter if we're mutuals or not! <3

The truth is... in the past, I've been so bad at participating in tag games after being tagged. And there is a singular reason for that: I don't know who to tag! And the mental effort of finding X number of people... sometimes makes me not reply. Which is sad, because I'm always happy to get tagged and want to participate!

Also I realise many other people would probably love to be tagged. So I finally realised that... I can make this post! You can let me know! I can add you to some sort of list, tag you lots and everybody's happy.

(Don't know why it took me years to realise this!)

Sometimes it hits me all over again that my husband is the best husband anybody could ask for and that he's amazing and I love him more than anything, and I tell him all of that. And he's super appreciative but a bit confused and goes "I'm not even doing anything!"

But, like, he does everything, you know? 🥹

Day-time sleeping and night-time sleeping are two completely different abilities. And the thing about me is I am sooooo good at the former yet sooooo bad at the latter.

I have FINALLY finished this book! It took me, like, 2 months? 😭😭 I mean, I'm not the fastest reader, but that's a bit extreme when my average is probably 2-3 weeks.

Anyway. Quick thoughts?

The writing style and characters were actually alright. But this author combined three things I hate!

A) multi PoV. It's very rare for me to enjoy multi-PoV and this book is a perfect example of why I typically don't like it. There were far too many characters! I genuinely could not keep them straight and getting mixed up all the time was so frustrating. How can I care about people when I remember nothing about them??

B) "Mosaic" style with disjointed timeline. Whenever the author followed one character for a while, I started to get into the book. Like I said, the writing wasn't bad. But just when I felt interested in how things were going to progress for this particular character, the story jumped to a different person at a completely different point in time and I had to try to get into it all over again. You know how it can be hard to get into a book initially because you don't know what's going on and don't (yet) care about the main character(s)? It was that over and over again! 😭

C) This book actually helped me figure out something interesting about my reading preferences. So I love mysteries, right? And sometimes I read mysteries that I find "too confusing" and lose interest. But my favourite murder mysteries are actually quite confusing as well. So what's the key difference? Well, like I said, this book brought it home for me: I don't mind things being confusing when the MC is just as confused as I am. When I am inside their mind, trying to figure things out, that's perfectly fine. What I hate is when things are confusing because information is deliberately being kept from me, you know? The characters all know what's going on. But nobody is telling me! Information is purposefully held back. Their day-to-day is described (having tea, chatting with a neighbour), while the real questions (did they murder their husband?) are ignored. And there is no real way for me to figure things out because I am fed mere snapshots in order to keep up the suspense.

So yeah, hate that. And it's kind of exactly what this book did! 😅 At least in my view.

Do you feel me on any of these points? 📚

The serotonin hit when I scroll through two consecutive paragraphs of my draft that were left unaltered by my PhD supervisor lmao

I have contact lenses. And when I take them out, often I use eye drops first, because otherwise it can hurt. Yesterday I was crying as I went to take them out. And I realised actual tears have the same effect and I could take them out super easily.

So now I'm debating whether I should make myself cry each night before taking them out. Save money on the eye drops, you know? They're kind of expensive.

I'm almost convinced at this point that Taylor Swift has made a deal with some sort of dark entity. Something about her music career just seems... supernatural.

I used to think her music was... okay. Generic pop songs. Some were fun, but I didn't get the hype.

Anyway, a while ago I started listening to her songs more and they, like, drew me in? It's the strangest effect? Suddenly I couldn't stop and sequentially got obsessed with them?

And, like, it's totally Orwellian double think! The strangest thing! I still think they sound like generic pop songs and are not all that special and her lyrics aren't that revolutionary, but at the EXACT SAME TIME I absolutely adore some of them and they do weird things to me and the lyrics seems so different from everything else out there?

That is to say... despite myself... I was very excited when Tortured Poets dropped today. ♡

I've been on Tumblr since 2018 and I believe I just got anon hate for the first time?

I'm... so confused. Because, you see, the insults spanned the whole spectrum, yes, but the ask also included specifically transphobic insults? And I'm literally cis?

Are the transphobes just targeting cis women now on the off-chance we're secretly trans? 😂