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@simplydnp

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i feel like i need to go back and rewatch the entire 2 hour stream i need to experience it again

ive rewatched it so many times already. my favourite videos are the ones where they're just having fun, and that's what this stream is. there's a loose goal, a bucket of good vibes, and 'challenges' (incentives) to keep themselves entertained and uping the ante. it was fucking brilliant. what an excellent day.

#i relate to dan in his birthday being a day that he struggles with. maybe less about the existentialism (though i'm sure thats not far off)#but moreso about expectations and socializing.#i struggle a lot with the concept of selfishness--in that i hate being perceived as it. i simply cannot be selfish#so it can be difficult to really try to enjoy a day that's supposed to be about me#combine that with people in my life & surrounding experiences meant that i couldn't really Be the focus on that day#it internalized that i shouldnt be. so wanting it *was* selfish#and that it wasnt important. so neither was i.#birthdays really. really suck sometimes. so i'm really glad we were able to be part of such a positive & memorable birthday for dan#especially since he (& phil) were there for mine a few months ago#dnp#c.text#phan#answered
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fryday

"obviously", they were more than friends. i could probably talk forever about the million things that word does just by being there, but right now i'm just sitting with the idea that dan using that word validated so much. it did not and could never excuse some of the awful things people used to do, i know - but it was, amongst that million other things i mentioned, almost an assurance that yeah, you can trust your eyes. it seemed obvious? that's because it was. it was real. and now i'm just thinking of us here, in this post-hiatus, post-gay, dnp renaissance era, watching the two of them giggle and flirt and overshare about their sex lives, and i'm wondering if this is 2009 again, and even as they continue to smoothly use the word "friend", i'm thinking god - this seems so obvious though. and like. yeah. yeah, it seems obvious, because it is. because it's real. and dan almost literally gave us that nod 5 years ago. you can trust your eyes

#another thing in that they couldnt hide it even if they tried--cause they did! there wasnt like steps to mislead.#but they werent *trying* to advertize it. but they couldnt help it. its just who they are.#of course it was obvious! 🥺#it was a 10 year relationship at that point.#part of the 'obvious' was us seeing. but it was also them *sharing*. lampshading. hinting. whatever you want to call it.#and its the way dans not running from it here: *obviously* we were more than friends#its the fact that he knows we knew! and its not a 'snorf you were right' but a 'hey. yeah. duh. of course we were'#gauugghhh#its so. much. to reflect on. especially with dans recent words in how the phandom is one of the main reasons he did come out#the *support* from all of us. so yeah. it was obvious. but we loved him *regardless*. and that let him love himself 😭#dnp#c.text
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mohamedalanqer

I am Mohammed Alanqer married from Enas Majed we have 3 children

Amidst the ongoing war in Gaza, we find ourselves as a family trapped between walls of fear and despair. I, Mohammed, a father of three children and a husband to a woman in her eighth month of pregnancy, live in an environment filled with threats and risks.

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My technology startup, which I built with dedication and hard work, was destroyed during this war, leading to the loss of our livelihood. My children, Layan, Sarah, and Adam, no longer have the opportunity for education due to the destruction of schools, posing a significant threat to their future.

- "A souvenir photo of my startup company."-

My wife, Enas, lives in constant anxiety due to her advanced pregnancy and the destruction of hospitals in the area. After losing my job and source of income, I find myself in a severe financial crisis, unable to provide for the needs and safety of my family.

- "Me and my wife Enas majed "

Our family home was destroyed due to the war, forcing us to flee and move multiple times, leaving us homeless. Everything has become difficult now; we cannot provide a safe place to live, nor can we afford clean clothes and food for our children. Additionally, our children have been afflicted with diseases such as measles, and our son Adam has been diagnosed with viral hepatitis.

-" layan & sara & adam in the war" -

Our only hope now is to escape from this ongoing hell and find a safe haven for our family. However, this requires exorbitant financial costs, with the coordination fee for crossing borders amounting to $5000 per adult and $2500 per child, a sum I cannot afford alone.

- "My home before the war "-

We urgently appeal for your moral and financial assistance to cover the necessary costs for escaping to a safe environment, where we can build a better future for our children and ensure the safety of our family

Thank you for your attention and support, and we hope you can help us in these difficult circumstances.

Thanks 😊@nabulsi 🙏❤️

Thanks 😊 @communistchilchuck ♥️🙏

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phanyaoi

fun phact: phil is like the only other person named in "basically im gay"

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phanyaoi

and also he never even says who tf is phil like, that man just went "and then i met phil. my morethanjustromantic best friend, my companion through life, my actual soulmate" and never once explained who tf is he. like genuinely dan said if you know you know

#can we check when the last time dan explained who phil was was? & vice versa? its been a long fucking time#but considering BIG is his magnum opus. going through his history and life story and current existence. and yet.#of course phil's a part of it. but of course *you* already know who phil is. you know this story. youve seen it.#but here's me talking about how much it meant to me. how much i needed it & valued it and still do. how important he was and is. to this day#it isnt the point of the video but that section is so. much. bc its the first time we've really heard him talk about it.#we've *seen* some of the impact. but him saying it. telling us. is entirely different.#and it kickstarted his poetic language to describe phil and what he and phil have/are together.#dnp#c.text
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